~~~~~~~~~~~Caution- this post is not of the norm. It is not a fully positive and uplifting post that I like to do, but it is for sure something that needs to be posted.~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Depression is not always what it seems. It is not always withdrawing from those you love. It is that, but it is more. It is not always being massively upset. Yes it is that but it is more. It is not always not eating and not sleeping. It is not always a time where your focus is gone. Yes depression is all of this and more. Withdrawing, being massively upset, not eating or sleeping, and having you focus be gone are telltale signs of depression but depression does not always show up in this way. There are signs that not everyone is aware of.
Depression does not always show up with the classic symptoms that are listed above. It can have so many more symptoms. It can be a loss of appetite or over eating. For some they may over sleep or not sleep. There may be tiredness that may not be from physical exertion. A person may feel restlessness or irritability (or both). There may be a slowness of movement or speech. Feeling depressed and or withdrawn may be common. For many there is a loss of interest in things that were once enjoyed. For many there may be a difficulty in concentrating, poor memory or they may even have a hard time making decisions. Often thoughts of harm towards them self or others including death are prevalent with depression. Life may be viewed as not worth living. Low self-esteem could be present in depression.
A person who is battling depression may have feelings of helplessness, being worthless, or guilty. They could have unexplained aches and pains. They could become extremely pessimistic when they are normally cheerful and optimistic. They may be taking risks and putting themselves in danger. They may feel and express that things would be better if they were not around.
It is said that medical attention needs to happen if there is a feeling of extreme depression, fear, or anxiety occur. Or if there is extreme anger toward themselves or others. Feeling out of control or have major outbursts the person may want to get help. Additionally, if there is any indication of self harm or harm to others. Hearing voices or seeing thing that others do not hear or see. Finally if the person have not slept or eaten in three days. For or all of these medical help should be sought
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Depression is able to be cured. For some intensive therapy or medications are key. There are some people where both work. Calming down relaxing and have time for self is often important in relieving symptoms of depression. Doing what you love and spending time with people you love, can help as well. Talk to someone. Acknowledge the feelings. Support your loved ones who are battling depression. It is not an easy battle and should not be faced alone.
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I chose to write on what depression is because I have been living with severe depression for the last month or more. I was in denial that I was depressed. I did not exhibit any of the normal symptoms. I had some sadness but not heavy sadness. I lost interest in stuff that I loved but it did not seem like depression. For me it was the unusual symptoms. I began getting agitated at the simplest things. I would blow up for no real apparent reason. I became very pessimistic especially to myself. I had no self-esteem. I also unconsciously began to push away those who loved me because I felt that if I pushed them away then when and if something happened it would make things easier. I noticed that on some of my harder days my old injuries were in major pain. I would sleep by it was never restful.
Too me it was something else. Now that I know it is depression I see everything that I was doing and feeling. I see and understand that I have been battling depression. It saddens me but I am working through it.
I am currently seeking help because I can not live like this. My reasoning for this post is because I do not want others to fall down the way I fell. I had no idea that I have been battling depression I was convinced that it was something else. I want to see others get help before it is too late. Part of what got me to where I am in my depression is that I was not expressing myself. I was not letting myself acknowledge all that was wrong. Had I done so I may not be where I am. If you are feeling that there needs to be something done or feel that that you need to express something then please find a way even if it is is just crying out to God or writing in journal. Get it out of your mind. Capture your thoughts and learn to understand them. If you see anyone that is experiencing these types of symptoms try and get them help. If they are uninterested in help please know that you tried. Not everyone is going to be willing to get help. I was not ready for awhile and though I let a close friend crisis line me and I went to counseling after, I was still not in a spot for the help. This simple act of getting me to go for help before I was ready, made it easier for when I was ready for help. One last final piece is please be mindful and be patient while in a deep depression it is possible that your loved one is unaware of what they are saying or doing. If you suspect that something is off understand that they are not themselves and while they want to be themselves they are pulled so far down into a deep, dark, pit and may not know how to get out.
Know that there is hope, that life will brighten up. It will take time but it is so possible. I am working on getting to a better spot and I am already seeing the brighter and more happy times.
While I know that not everyone is a believer in God I am and will be praying that you do not have to go through the pain of depression that I am going through, and if you that you find away out. God Bless!!