I have gone through more than I really should have gone through in the last 10 months. I have struggled in every way. I have worked to get to where I need to be, though at ties I have really almost given up.
For a few months I really did not care about my life. I felt that my life was not worth living. I felt that there was no purpose. I felt no hope. I felt no that nothing was important to me. It has taken a lot for me to see that my life is worth living. It has taken a lot for me to realize that I have a purpose and that there is hope.
In seeing all this I have found that I have to restart: rebuild. In this I mean I need to find a new path and I have to start to go down that path and start to rebuild my life from the bottom and work my way up. I have tried to start rebuilding from where I am, but when I look at all that I am going through there is so much more that I need to face than present. Restarting and rebuilding my life means that I recreate and I start to rework everything from the beginning. It sounds crazy and sounds like a lot of work but sometimes that is what has to happen.
For me doing this means counseling, it means looking at what is pulling me down and why. It means adjusting to the pain and learning how to move forward. It means that I look at my old passions and I look to how I can readjust those passions to who I am now. It means developing new passions. It means I look at what is and what is not healthy for me. It also means taking old passions and rebuilding them so they are stronger.
Restarting and rebuilding is not easy, but I am ready for it.
If you feel that you have hit walls and you are not going forward in your life maybe you need to restart or rebuilding or both. Whatever it is do what is best for you.
